Nostalgia

Well it's been awhile. The reason I have returned ,after so long, is nostalgia. Now nostalgia is taken from a greek words nostos + algia and its a form of new latin so close enough for me. Anyway, lately I've been feeling nostalgic. I've been thinking of what my life was like in the past and what it is now. Things are different and I'm not sure if its good or bad. I find myself missing old friends and wishing life could go back to a simplier time when I didn't have to worry about so much stuff such as bills, renewing leases, moving, etc.... Have you ever looked back on your life and just thought to yourself, man I wish i could have done some things differently. I'm at the point, and its disappointing to me because I'm not even halfway to 50. Yet, here I am looking at old pictures,messages, and gifts and wondering what would have happened if things hadn't turned out the way they did. For example, what would have happened if I had gotten with my senior prom date? What if I hadn't broke up with my junior prom girlfriend? What if I hadn't broken up with my college freshman girlfriend? What would have happened if I had never met her? What if I hadn't went to that dance in my sophmore year and met those four girls? What if I had never went out with Keil? What if somehow me and juliet had remained friends? What if I had never went to UMHB at all? There is an endless possibility of different outcomes that could have happened had I made different choices. Some I would make again, some I wouldn't. The fact of the matter is I didn't make different choices and that why I am where I am today. My mind may wander on the choices of the past but in the end I made my choices and I have to follow them to the bitter end. NO fancy sayings for this one. maybe next time.