Well here I am again. It has been a long time since I posted. I was an emotional wreck back then and I stayed that way for awhile. My last post was on December 23, 2010. Thanks to a neat countdown on my phone i can count exactly how long its been since something happened. It has been 90 days 19 hours and 21 minutes since my last post. So after that post I drove down to Julia's fro Christmas eve. It was nice and her family was cool. They gave me presents which i weren't expecting. I was a little regretful I wasn't spending it with energy girl but I got over it because of the Christmas spirit. After Christmas time flew to new years. I went to Ikkicon 5 with my friend NightKitten. Had loads of fun. I got drunk, had sex, partied all weekend and met new friends. After that awesome weekend time flew by and January went by quickly. Valentines day was depressing. During this time my main friend from school was Julia. We were still friends even though energy girl and me were not. I began to have feelings for her. Which was kind of stupid of me but if i could have stopped it i would have. So i became clingy to her and I acted immature and we fought alot. We made up but i didn't change. I constantly complained about my life and was mopey and basically kind of a bitch. Well it all came to a head march 5th. I texted her and she wanted a day to herself and i didn't know that. So i kept texting her because i wanted to talk and finally she snapped and was rude. So i decided (like an idiot) to fight fire with fire and complained about it and women in general. Two days later she de-friended me and hasn't talked to me since. I regret my actions and wish we could be friends again but i fear she has had enough of seeing the bad side of me. I guess what I'm saying now is that I've changed. I'm not going to be the bitchy guy(try really hard anyway) and just change in general. Just going to sail along the river of life and just let the currents take me wherever they lead.